Where the hell am I?

Busan

Synchronized   Dynamic

Growing   Promising   and Missing

The place that makes me calm, but the place that I always wanted to leave.

The Journey Home

NYC

Fancy   Crowded

Blazing   never Sleeping   but in someway Disgusting

The place that coexisting the Everything and the Nothing.

Paradoxxx

Who the hell am I?

Kid

Settled  Regular

Squandering  Revolving  Chasing

I was nothing but a child who has all grown up.

DayDreamer

Destruction

Vulnerable  Emotional

Floating  Wandering  but Mending

I

'm looking for an answer to who I am?

Rebirth

My Father, and My Mother Taught Me...

My father taught me No Thing

He just taught me to Follow my Guts

My mother taught me to Believe Her

She just taught me to Follow Her

As I grew up, she let me Follow my Guts


Now, whenever I am lost in the Journey of my Life

I Follow my Guts

Litany - Recording

The "V" day

Happy Valentine day!!

For your information, Korea also celebrate Valentine day, but it has little different meaning.

In U.S. people give some present or chocolate to each other.  However, in my country the Valentine day is the day for men.  Only girls give chocolate or present to boys.  Sadly this kind of thing didn’t happen in my life.  Even for a little piece of chocolate………………….. So, when people says happy Valentine day, I think like this “So what?”

Is it sounds unfair?  But we have a day for girls.  March, 14^th which called as White day, is the day for girls.  On white day boys give candies to girls, of course if a man got chocolates on Valentine day he have to give more candies to girl who gave him chocolates.  It’s unfair cause the Valentine day always comes first. 

Anyway happy Valentine day!!

Litany - The endless journey...

You are the Holy Grail that cannot be found

You are the El Dorado that disppeared

You are the Atlantis that sunk in the ocean

However, you are not the raindrop

that kisses to it'sdeath

And you are absoulutely not the heart of a witch


It might be interest you to know,

I am on the trip to oblivion to find you


And I know that you do not show

Your sweetheart without any

Introspection


You are still the Holy Grail that cannot be found

And I am the lost child on the way to oblivion

Nevertheless, I am sure that you wll reveal yourself in

True color

Sorrow...(Three line poem)

Sorrow stares at people in the middle of Downtown

Wearing blue tear drops

She tears her clothes and becomes one of the crowd

Sense of place......

                As I saw the symbol of my flipped mandala, it reminded me one place.  A great rest place I used to go.  I felt like I’m looking the ceiling of an octagonal pavilion.  I could imagine the image of myself.  Lying down on the octagonal pavilion and looking the ceiling of it.  The wind is blowing.  It’s cool, and it smells salty.  I look around, and there is ocean in front of me, and the sun interrupting my eye sight.  I just lying down again, and watching the ceiling.  The symbol of the ceiling makes me calm down.  I can forget everything that bothers me, and it feels like I’m in the middle of the nature. 

                This octagonal pavilion is in the end of pathway of Amnam Park, which is near from my home.  This place represents the end of the pathway of park, but I thought this place means turning point.  Because, I have to go back the same way that I have just came. 

                Also, I can’t forget the ocean view.  This place is on the edge of the mountain which is facing to ocean.  I can see the clear view of the ocean.  It makes me refreshing, and I really miss it. 

My name...

      My name Jinyoung means famous and wealth.  Well, first of all I like my name.  The meaning of my name represets my parent's expectation.  However, now I can ask my parents that who can be famous and be rich without any effort or talent?  They gave me a name that has no time to take a break. Crap!  Nevertheless, I still like my name since it sounds generic or neutral.  My name can be used by both genders.  Actually, I have searched for people who have the same name and age as me.  The result was there were about 15 people who using same name with me, and actually there are a few more women who use my name.  This kind of name is not really usual in my country.  FYI, Since I prefer everything to be neutral or fair, I like my name.

       Despite having this beautiful name, I have many friends who never call ma by name.  I have several nicknames, but the popular one is Jungil.  This nickname came from Jungil Kim, king of North Korea.  My friends said that my appearance looks like him.  How absurd that is!!